This article was very deep and therefore, I found it quite hard to read. It’s really heartbreaking to even think that people have had lives like Shin’s. This article made me think of two things. The first is that if you’ve seen too many bad things then you slowly loose your emotions and change as a person. The second was very interesting because it kept me thinking about the same question, would a life like this be my dystopia?
From the moment you start reading the article you can tell that this is going to be a tragic and depressing story. When he explains that his mother and brother were brought out and killed, I suddenly got an image of my mom and sister being up there. As hard as it is to write that is what I pictured and even though it was completely fictional I felt extremely sad for a split second. I found it very peculiar that if I can react that way based on an imagination, then how can Shin not cry when it actually happened. Shin said, “My father was weeping, but I didn’t cry. I had no love for her. Even today I hate her for what I had to go through because of her.” This is imperative to the story because not one of us can relate to it. One must be crazy to hate one’s own mother, we are built in such a way that in one way or another we do love our parents. Moreover, when he said I didn’t cry, that was one of the most shocking sentences I read. Witnessing somebody getting hanged and shot in front of must be life scaring especially, if it’s your mother and brother! Shin was surrounded by so much pain and violence that I believe he lost all his emotions. People say that if you’ve been in a war or been in prison for too long it changes you. If that’s true then surely living under Shin’s conditions must completely destroy your emotions.
While reading about Camp Number 14 you feel as though you are being a told a scary and fictional story. The reason one feels this way is because the living conditions are so dreadful that it’s simply too hard to believe. This is definitely going to be a dystopia for a lot of people. I for one would have never been able to survive if I was treated like Shine. In the article Shine says, “I got to visit my mother only once or twice a year. I never saw my whole family together. I don’t think I saw my brother more than a few times.” Even the thought of going through what he just told us frightens me; at 11 I couldn’t spend more than 2 weeks without my mom. The thing that saddens me the most is when he said that he has never seen his entire family together, the definition of a family is parents and children living together in a household. According to that Shin has never seen a family and therefore, never experienced the joy that comes with it. Towards the end of the article it says, “He has recurring nightmare about being back in Camp No. 14. Awake, he wonders what happened to his father…” Again, these passages are so strong, particularly if you decide to put yourself in his shoes. One can only imagine how horrible a place must be in order to get recurring nightmares years after you’ve left it. It’s amazing that he’s able to live his life and at the same time ask himself, ‘what happened to my father?’
It’s unthinkable that somebody has actually experienced these things and lived under such frightful conditions. Reading this article made me feel miserable, and the worst part is that it never seems to end. If I would have been in Shine’s position I would have killed myself long ago because the truth is, there is no way death could be worse than the life he was living.